It's been a while...

Okay, I knew I would either be great at this or horrible. So counting the number of blogs I guess we know where I fit, but here I am, trying again. So many things have happened in the past month, where to begin...My job that has really kind of been a breeze since October, became a real job! It has been crazy, stressful, frightening, and fun! I have met some amazing people, with awesome stories of answered prayers and faith in God's promises. These people tell me stories of God's grace, comfort and healing from wheelchairs, hospital beds, and old, ratty couches. I truly believe God gave me this job to grow my faith and my prayer life. These people are a blessing, the paperwork is not, but, you can't have it all...It seems that the THAT class is actually bonding, growing, meeting new friends, and liking it! I love it and I hope everyone else does too! Now if everyone will just start DOING the lessons...What can I say about RADIATE 08? I left each night with a greater sense of who God sees when he looks at me and how many lost people I walk by everyday. I want to radiate!! I want to be a person that causes people to ask "what is with her?" , but in a good way. I want to be so radical that my kids are embarrassed by me! I want to be whatever GOD wants me to be, wherever he wants me to be...Wow! See, once I get started it is hard for me to stop. We recently found out that Sterling's dad will be out of jail soon, it is getting harder to think about that objectively. The flesh part of me tries to build walls around my heart for protection, and tries to keep him at arms length. It tells me "well he just can't have him! He should have thought about him before! And well it will be easier if he goes back with him" But I know that God placed him in our lives, just like he gave me Mason, Madi, and Alex, and whatever His plan is is OK with me. I am so glad that He is in control, because I know I could really screw this up! We could all definitely use your prayers for this situation. Okay, that is probably enough for now, I shouldn't tarry too long.....:)