Okay, I do not like this...I am starting to encounter some of the things that I heard my parents talk about. I have experienced a big disappointment. Don't get ideas, it isn't anything life changing or horrendous, but a kind of sadness that I couldn't have imagined. I don't really know even how to handle it. God gives us mercy, so I want to also have mercy and give mercy, but I also have to train, guide, discipline. How do you do both? I hate that I disappoint God this way, it makes me sad. I guess maybe that is why I am feeling this now, just so I have a hint of how much God loves us, despite how we've messed up. Thank you God for your grace.